After

After Tuesday, I feel complacent. I feel numb until I’m around you. When I’m not around you, I try not to feel anything incase this is all fake.

I plead back and forth in my head, “I hope she’s not doing anything else behind my back..” I pray, “Please, give me the strength to see if this will work..”

I can’t stand the thought of you being shared. Even as you snore next to me, taking up the entire bed… I want you. I wish I was talking to you instead of waiting for morning. I wish I was kissing you. I miss you when you sleep.

While playing in your hair, “God I hope she stays mine and only mine..” examining your hair texture.. silky smooth and soft. God I love this girl. I do but I live every single day, day by dayz second by second now.nl focusing on the positives, and sorting through negatives.

God, I hope. All I need is honesty, kindness, and your love..